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“It’s Finally Time”: Britney Spears Opens Up About Justin Timberlake, Shaving Her Head, and That VMAs Snake

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Britney Spears‘ memoir, The Woman In Me, hits shelves next week on October 24, and she’s promised a no-holds-barred narrative for her fans.

“It is finally time for me to raise my voice and speak out, and my fans deserve to hear it directly from me,” she said in an interview. “No more conspiracy, no more lies—just me owning my past, present, and future.”

Though she admitted that having control of her own life following the 13-year legal conservatorship that ended in 2021 is “challenging at times,” Spears revealed that she’s finally ready to speak her truth. “After getting out of my conservatorship, I was finally free to tell my story without consequences from the people in charge of my life.”

In a series of short excerpts from the memoir, the audiobook — which will be read by Oscar-nominated actor Michelle Williams — Spears describes her experience of dating Justin Timberlake, and having an abortion during their much-talked-about relationship. The excerpts also revealed her inner monologue during times the world was watching, like her infamous performance of “I’m a Slave 4 U” at the 2001 MTV Video Music Awards, dancing onstage with a Burmese python draped over her shoulders. The snake was “more terrifying than it appeared,” she wrote. “All I knew was to look down, because I felt if I looked up and caught its eye, it would kill me.”

Even without making reptilian eye contact, Spears writes that her animal co-star terrified her. “What nobody knows is that as I was singing, the snake brought its head right around to my face, right up to me, and started hissing,” she wrote. “I was thinking, Are you serious right now? The snake’s tongue is flicking out at me. Right. Now. Finally, I got to the part where I handed it back, thank God.”

And, of course, she shares details about what was going through her head during the conservatorship that gave her family legal, financial, and physical control over her life. “I didn’t deserve what my family did to me,” she writes. Before the conservatorship, she’d rebelled, straining against the confines of superstardom and public criticism. “Shaving my head and acting out were my ways of pushing back. But under the conservatorship I was made to understand that those days were now over. I had to grow my hair out and get back into shape. I had to go to bed early and take whatever medication they told me to take.”

She said that her father, Jamie Spears, would criticize her constantly: “He repeatedly told me I looked fat and that I was going to have to do something about it.” In contrast to the joy and drive she felt when recording her early albums, Spears said, “The conservatorship stripped me of my womanhood, made me into a child. I became more of an entity than a person onstage. I had always felt music in my bones and my blood; they stole that from me.”

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