In a recent interview, Billie Eilish opened up about the difficult experiences in her personal life including the time when her safety was compromised.
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Billie Eilish got candid in a new interview with Rolling Stone, and went on to share a few insights from her life alongside her mental health struggles, and an experience that made her “resentful” of her life. The Grammy winning singer spoke about the downside of fame, the times when “really scary things” happened in her personal life, and her safety was at risk from prying fans.
“It’s not in the job description, for sure,” Eilish said. “I had really scary things happen in my personal life and my safety was compromised a couple of times, and that’s a big part of my life,” she admitted. “That is something I just have to live with. But I don’t know, it really made me resentful of my life, when you can’t even be in your own house.” The singer revealed that she has a gray pitbull named Shark, and while he takes anti-anxiety medication, he is very protective of her. “Just because he’s anxious doesn’t mean he couldn’t rip your face off if you come into my house,” she said.
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The 22-year-old artist also opened up about living with depression, and a particularly intense episode she experienced last summer. “It was just realer than it’s ever been before. My whole life, I’ve never been a happy person, really. I’ve been a joyous person but not a happy person. I experience joy and laughter, and I can find fun in things, but I’m a depressed person,” she said. “I’ve suffered with a lot of depression my whole life. When things happen in my soul, or whatever, the thing I’ve always held on to is, ‘Well, it’ll pass. It’ll come in waves, and it’ll get worse and it’ll get better.’ And that’s always brought me comfort. And this time, I literally was like, ‘I don’t care. I don’t even want it to get better.'”
Although Eilish is not afraid to be honest on the topic, and recognizes its importance, she shared that she doesn’t see herself as an advocate for mental health care. “I think it’s really weird when you are in the middle of something and somebody asks you to be the advocate for the thing you’re in the middle of,” Eilish said. “I understand that it’s important, and I understand that it’s an epidemic and it needs to be talked about, but I don’t want to be the role model for depression. What happens when I do some(thing) y’all aren’t going to like?”
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After winning her ninth Grammy Award for the Barbie soundtrack ‘What Was I Made For?’, Eilish is gearing up for the release of her third album, Hit Me Hard and Soft, which comes out next month.
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